Randomness On My Mind

This is what's been on my mind lately...

I must warn you, my mind is a scary place to venture at times...

*reader beware*

I was a very disgruntled customer when I got to Harmons and they were out of the full-size bags of Cadbury mini eggs and I had to buy tiny individual bags instead.

When I got home and unpacked my loot, the thought occurred to me that my candy supply might be getting a little out of hand....

HE is on my mind as usual. He is with his Dad and I miss him fiercely! I'm ashamed to admit that the first 2 days he is gone are rather relaxing for me and I somewhat enjoy it. But after that I'm ready for him to come back.

The other day I got out of the shower and could hear water running in his bathroom, so I yelled across the house,

"JA-ACK" , turn of the waa--teerr."

I assumed he was running his "color changing" cars under it as usual.

I was surprised by his reply.

"Noo--ooo Mom, I'm not finished doing my haa--aaiiirrr."

Then an instant later...in he walks to greet me.

Very. Well. Done.

Yep, even opened the gel by himself!

(and used half the jar)

(and we had to wash his hair 4 times to get it all out)

Also on my mind....

I traded in my Zack Morris brick phone.

Wahoo!!!

Despite my elation over my new phone, I was rather sad to retire my old one.

It was hard for me to say goodbye.

It was even harder for my phone to say goodbye, cause it was dead.

Literally dead.

Wouldn't even work.

The new phone arrived at the perfect time.

It's pretty awesome. It can do amazing things. Like take pictures.

And I think some other things too, but I haven't figured them out yet.

(Valentine's Day at the Park)

Tomorrow, my big sis' is having baby #4!!!!

I am thrilled for her.

But more importantly, the secret will finally be out

and I won't have to keep it in anymore!!!!

In case you didn't know....I scanned her and know what the sex is,

but, NO ONE else knows.

It's been the most difficult secret EVER to keep.

Which probably explains why I haven't kept it.

I've told A LOT of people.

LOTS. OF. PEOPLES.

So I am putting my crafting abilities to the test and sewing a beyond darling boppy pillow cover for her. THIS is the fabric, but its even more cute in person.

I will not show the coordinating fabric and rickrack cause it would be a dead giveaway.

And I'm great at keeping secrets and will not ruin my track record now.

Enough for now...

I'm off now to take a sewing class,

sew said boppy pillow cover,

eat some candy,

work a half-day tomorrow,

drive up to Salt Lake,

meet my adorable niephew(ha ha ha),

pick up my baby,

and be back to work by Thursday.

Now do you see why my mind is so crazy?

It's GREAT to have cousins that wear the same size in case you forget your pjs.....

It's NOT so GREAT when that cousin is a girl!

Saturday January 22, 2011

"Hey Mom, things at the restaurant are going REALLY good today, huh?"

Jack has the best imagination ever. I love watching and hearing him play. Whenever we are watching TV or movies he insists that we both take on the roles of the characters. On Saturday we went to see Tangled, and halfway through the movie he leans over and informs me that I am Rapunzel and he is Flynn Rider. Despite the fact that he is a wild and crazy 3 year old, and I practically cry on a daily basis because I feel like he is so naughty and I am doing a poor job at being his mother, he continually surprises me with sweet, thoughtful things he does and says. He is very loveable and cuddly and is constantly showering me with hugs and kisses. On Sunday we had a bunch of people over for dinner, and in the middle of it all he says, "Mom, you look pretty today." I'm pretty sure everyone thought I had brain-washed him to say it, but he truly is a sweet little boy.

I worry constantly that the decisions of the past year will have detrimental impact on his life, and I pray everyday that I will know how to be a better parent to him and help him be able to have a great life. I think as parents we worry so much about our children, and it breaks my heart to think that my decisions will have such a negative effect on him and his upbringing.

I don't know how to have more faith right now. I feel like everyday I tell myself that I need more faith, more faith, more faith, but I don't know how to get it. I need more faith to know that I'm doing everything I can as a parent to provide and nurture. I need more faith to know and believe that I can and will be healed from the events of the past few years and be capable of being someone's partner again. I need faith to know that I will have a partner again. I need more faith to know that it will all work out.

I wish life was as simple as being a child, and imagining that you are someone else or in a different situation. It seems like life would be a little easier if I was Rapunzel and through a brilliant chain of events I let some prince charming rescue me. I wish "things at the restaurant were going really good today."

Jesus wants me for a SUN-BEEEAAAMMM...

That's right...you're looking at the newest sunbeam.

(Well, along with the 32 others in our ward)

Jack Boy

My poor Jack boy....

It's sometimes difficult being the man of the house...

So much pressure and responsibility....

I know he feels trapped.....

Like--he just wants to hide and escape from it all...

Lucky for him he's found some relaxing ways to wind down.....

Now if the weather would just warm up a bit we could REALLY enjoy ourselves

and our new Christmas toys....
Man, I love this boy.

Merry Christmas.

For the last 11 months I have been counting down the days of 2010 and praying the year would end quickly. I've had a terrible attitude about the upcoming holidays and truly wished this last one, painful month of 2010 would be over and I could have a new start and a better outlook for 2011.

In the last few weeks, all of that has changed.

I'm not sure what I've done to be worthy or deserving of the overwhelming acts of kindness, generosity and love that have been displayed toward Jack and I, and the outpouring of friendship that I have felt. All I do know is that the Spirit of Christmas is alive and burning in my heart and soul, and that the love of our Heavenly Father has me humbled beyond description.

The entire month of December has brought us one enormous blessing after another; the Heavens have truly been opened upon us, prayers have been answered and I have been brought to joyful tears on a daily basis.

I don't want this month to EVER end. (Or the year, for that matter.)

Even though at innumerable times throughout the year I thought that I simply could not survive one more day, I somehow managed to get through each day and felt the Comforter urging me on. My testimony and knowledge of His love for us were strengthened each time I felt His loving arms enfold me and remind me to have faith that things will be okay.

While I never in my wildest dreams could've predicated the trials and challenges that we've been faced with this year, I am grateful for the opportunity I've had to learn and grow and truly understand His plan for us.

I hope you've all managed to feel the Christmas Spirit like we have this holiday season. I'm so grateful for the birth of the Savior, and the opportunity this time of year gives us to reflect on His life, our own lives, and to reach out and serve others.

Merry Christmas!

Love, The Johnsons

December Festivities

Famous One-Liners.

Yesterday, Jack's daycare teacher recited this great one-liner to me that Jack exclaimed earlier in the day:

"My dad's not a grown-up, he's just old."